think it again

Am I taking this too easy?

Damn. 

A very tough one this time.

No longer can delay. 

And, this is life.

To decide which road to cross and which bridge to burn.

I thought I've made up my mind.

But still, I'm shaken so easily.

These are the consequences of not knowing myself better.

Not knowing what I want and be determine on it.

ARGH! 

learning and keep on learning.

谈我的工做到怎样

从开工到现在，我已经做了三个星期了。

还没有sien. 也拿了我人生中第一次的 pay slip.

开了我人生中第一次为了进薪水而开的银行户口。

感觉就像是个大人。

很不错哦！

说真的，我从来都没有想过我会做得这么开心。

每一天都很充实，时间过得很快。

偶而还是会有点小压力，就那么一点啦。

也才发现，我的工作需要的是一个很细心的人。

惨的是，我不是一个细心的人，所以，上个星期，我做错了很多。

幸亏，我遇到了很好的同事还有上司。

其实我开心的原因，应该是因为我的同事吧。

他们真的很好笑。很爱开玩笑，尺度真的很宽。

几乎每一次的话题都是儿童不宜的。还蛮hiong的咯其实。

可是，也可以从中学到很多没有人会教你的东西。

哈哈哈，每一天都笑到倒！真的很好笑。不会形容有多好笑。

我真的很庆幸我可以和他们有缘成为同事，他们都很照顾我。

虽然还是有把我和别人乱配，不过，那个过程大家都是很开心的。

所以，我已经没有什么权利介意。

他们真的什么都能掰，我们再怎样都好，就算跳进黄河都洗不清了。

有他们的笑声陪伴，就感觉很温暖。

他们每一个都太可爱了，一想到他们，我竟然可以独自一个人在那边傻笑。

你可以想象有多好笑吗？

今天，还有另一个值得我高兴的是，

把握请回来的上司说，如果以后，我选对了领域，我会是一个很出色的人。

哇，很爽咧！听了好开心，有被肯定的感觉。

我不知道我可以做多久，不过目前为止，还是很满意，也很想继续下去。

就这样吧，

傻子

这首歌，好有感觉。很好听，也真的很有意思。

 

等愛的人很多 不預設你會在乎我難道一生的時間 
都用來換 和你一個誤會

誰能真的讓誰 幸福到故事的結尾何必那麼的慌張 
有時清醒 才是錯誤的開始 

我不需要 也不重要 做一個傻子多麼好 我不明白 也不需要明白 
就讓我這樣 到老 (就很好)

没什麼緊要 只需要你輕輕一個擁抱 就算不留下什麼也無所謂就算
留下了什麼也都珍貴 珍貴 珍貴

random#1

越矛盾的人越需要認同 越是在乎的人越害怕落空 所以我说没关系的时候 心很痛

never know it'll ended up like this. no one is happy. very pathetic. 

so many misunderstandings. and i cannot change anything, say anything, do anything to make this situation better. 
and today, I've voice up. never had a dream come true on my birthday. 
things will never go the way I wanted. 
just plain expressing. I'm very fine people.




To my dearest cousin Dan,
Sorry again for letting you down. 
Now only I know how much difference we have in our minds.
Just to let you know that, when this person is invited to my life, I'll never let this person to leave my life so easily.
To me, if I wish to be close to someone so badly, I'm sure I'll put much effort just to make sure we have close bonds and I'll never let go.
I'm always very confident with the bonds I've built. 
And I never thought that I'll be changing my thought to stop being close with someone.
of course, there would be exceptional cases. 
But, it will definitely not be your case.
I really treasure what we have now and I'm looking forward to what we'll be in the future.
It's all positive to me.
Love you just as much as you love me =)

Busy working life.

 It's been a while since I last update.

Sorry to those who came here often to check out on me.

As I supposed you know, I'm busy working currently. 

And been lacking of time to blog bout what's happening and what I'm thinking.

I'm feeling good and better that I don't have much time to think nonsense.

Though I don't like sleeping and waking up so early every weekdays to work, It's still better than rotting at home doing nothing meaningful right?

These days, I used to hang out at night and came home latest at 12.

I'm here to inform you guys that I'm not updating that frequent already.

I'm feeling tired every time I reached home. 

I believe I'll get use to everything very soon.

Wish myself luck. Till then.

Oops! Not forgetting the gathering we had tonight.
Btw, it supposed to be a farewell for my best friend, huiyin.
We ended up gathered with our senior YeeHoong, YunYing and SaiYe
OMG! It's super duper fun and exciting to meet up all of you and to laugh like mad.
I had a great and memorable night.
And I thanks those who wished me for Valentine Day.
Thank you so dearly much for all your <3
love you guys ! mwax! 

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!
It's not meant for couple but to those we loved.

another mushroom outing！

Had another memorable outing with my beloved ones.

Went to pantai kerachut and hotel stay with them.





And Pantai Kerachut amazed us. What a beautiful beach with a very breath-taking scenery.



Love it! Will pay more visit there if i got the chance.



Just because to hike the hill is not challenging.







Back to hotel and prepared our steamboat inside the hotel.






Played poker cards with them.
All newbie.





So, I'm the bad friend again, to be the friend who teach them how to play poker cards.
Very fun actually, and those who lose have to drink!
Drink what? Mixture of alcohols.
LOL.

Planned to get drunk but ended up we got a little bit tipsy only

Our mind were still quite conscious, just kinda High. Lol.



Ahh, it's really an unforgettable outing.
We fooled around until 2am i think. And pillow talk until 6am.
We laughed like hell.



I really love and enjoyed every moment being with them because I need not to explain who I am and they can understand me without having me to say a word.
We've been through a lot of ups and downs when we were in high school.
And thank god those hardships didn't bring us down, but made us stronger and our bonds too, became stronger than before.



So, I still feel safe when I'm with them. And I can always be myself when I'm with them.
They've seen the best and worst part of me but then, they never leave me.
They bullied me but I know everyone enjoyed.



However, sadly, huiyin is leaving us to aus to continue her study.
She's been the best friend of mine these years.
It's hard to accept the fact that she's leaving us so soon.
She has always play the important part in my life.
She is always the one who gave me the courage to do things.
To make me be certain on things and to listen to me every time.
I will definitely miss her with all my heart.
Siaopo, take good care of yourself kay?
And please contact us more often before we do.
I know you'll be alright and you won't make us worry.
I have faith on you, you sure can cope and adapt yourself in the new surroundings.
And do remember that, I'm always here for you.
Love you till I die. Mwax <3

 

ps: sorry guys, no time to edit already. and the pictures are totally not related with the words below it.
hope you enjoy reading my post anyway. =D

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这一篇是在二月五号写的：

我神经的。

明明故事就和我没有关系，偏偏就爱把自己弄得很投入。

结果自己在那边不知道怎样。

希望我开始做工后就没事了。

有些事，不能不管的，已经是一种责任。

我这个变态越来越发现自己很多很矛盾的地方。

今天，把最最最讨人喜欢的表弟送走了。

嗯，真的会很想念他，太可爱太可爱，太想疼他了。

没办法，我们两个都没有兄弟姐妹。

所以啊，如果有一个想他一样的弟弟给我疼也真的真的很不错！

还有，他也太厉害了。

尽然在短短的这几天内发现我的缺点。

还有偶然发现我的部落格。

幸亏他中文的程度很有限。

不过他也告诉我别忘了有google translate 这个东西。

同时，非常贴心的他也说了不会侵犯我的隐私，如果我不要他看，他就不看。

多么多么贴心又可爱的一个人。

这一段话是我今天二月九号要补充的：

由于，开始做工后，太忙了，没有时间给我做别的东西了。

真的，开始做工后，就没有再想无谓又钻牛角尖的东西了。

每天，只关心工作应该做的，想些有关深造的东西。

其他的，都没有多想了，很棒。

原来，做工没有我想象中的糟糕。

很庆幸的，我遇到愿意细心教导我的人。

原来原本我最看不顺眼的，竟然是最看得起我兼对我还蛮不错的人。

我的上司（聘请我的那个）之前觉得他很欠打，可是他却提醒我说，在老板在的时候要醒目，不要光明正大上网。

公司已经block脸书了，只能普通上网，我也很正经的，只在没事做的时候，上网找大学的资料，很乖了。

其实，我们可以用skype，所以，想和我说话的人，可怜我做工的人，可以add我，skype de contact name 是 tan.yiling 

谢谢各位。偶尔也是会闷的。

我最怕就是没事做。

我们的工作啊，很不定时的，多东西的时候，可能需要临时加班。

没事做的时候，真的很没事到我很想睡觉。

特别是早上，我一直打瞌睡，当然不敢睡啦。

另一点，我们的lunch break 让我觉得入不敷出啊，怎么都吃那么贵?

没办法，为了要融入圈子，我就和同事们一起出去吃咯。

他们都真的很好笑，虽然，粗话也黄色笑话很多，但是，我还是很乐在其中。

还有，一定要提的，那边的马来同胞，太可爱了，我很喜欢和他们zhor siao。

他们很好笑，很疯，不讨厌，人很好，所以，我一直主动去lang他们。

目前为止，我是很满意我的工作环境。

以后会怎样，我不知道，但希望一切顺利。

不要闯祸就好。

我们大家一起加油吧！

下一篇我再写一篇献给我很爱的表弟。=D