承认吧，我就是自私。只想自己的，没有顾及别人的感受。
我就是不喜欢让自己痛苦，总是想着该怎么做才会让自己开心。
简单说，我就是活在自己的世界、以自我为中心。
或许，我也还没准备好和别人分享我的生活吧。
或许，一个人、自由自在的、会比较好。
我就是期待别人会明白我要的是什么。就是不喜欢赤裸裸的告诉你我想要的是什么。
我就是不喜欢改变别人、更不喜欢别人要改变我。
和我做朋友，是最好最好的。因为，你不需要容忍我的无理取闹，霸道、任性，坏脾气。
也可能，和你靠越近的人，就是那个越猜不透你的人。
反而，旁观者的意见一针见血，一点就通。
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
亲爱的阿嬷
在細漢的時陣阮阿嬤對我尚好 甲尚好的東西攏會留乎我
伊嘛定定帶我去幼稚園看人在七桃 看人在辦公伙兒 看人在覓相找
伊定定跟阮說 叫阮著要好好仔讀冊 嘸通大漢像恁老爸仔彼呢啊狼狽ㄛ
在彼個時陣 阮攏聽攏嘸 阿嬤 妳到底是在講什麼
大漢了後 才知影阿嬤的話 我會甲永遠永遠放塊心肝底
想到一步一步的過去 定定攏會乎人真難忘 時間一分一秒塊過去 在阮的心內定定攏會想到伊
阿嬤妳今嘛在叨位 阮在叫妳妳甘有聽到
阮的認真甲阮的成功妳甘有看到 阮在叫妳妳知影沒
阿嬤妳今嘛過的好麼 甘有人塊甲妳照顧 希望後世人阮擱會凍來乎妳疼 作妳永遠的孫仔 擱叫妳一聲阿嬤
亲爱的阿嬷, 愿您一路好走。
我爱你,来世再当你的孙子,好吗?
伊嘛定定帶我去幼稚園看人在七桃 看人在辦公伙兒 看人在覓相找
伊定定跟阮說 叫阮著要好好仔讀冊 嘸通大漢像恁老爸仔彼呢啊狼狽ㄛ
在彼個時陣 阮攏聽攏嘸 阿嬤 妳到底是在講什麼
大漢了後 才知影阿嬤的話 我會甲永遠永遠放塊心肝底
想到一步一步的過去 定定攏會乎人真難忘 時間一分一秒塊過去 在阮的心內定定攏會想到伊
阿嬤妳今嘛在叨位 阮在叫妳妳甘有聽到
阮的認真甲阮的成功妳甘有看到 阮在叫妳妳知影沒
阿嬤妳今嘛過的好麼 甘有人塊甲妳照顧 希望後世人阮擱會凍來乎妳疼 作妳永遠的孫仔 擱叫妳一聲阿嬤
亲爱的阿嬷, 愿您一路好走。
我爱你,来世再当你的孙子,好吗?
Friday, June 14, 2013
纯粹有感而发 (希望没有什么错别字)
当希望落空时,只能怪自己追求的,都太过完美。
要感谢挫折,它让你看清自己要的是什么,更了解自己。
在情绪低落时,偶尔,回想起过去让你捧腹大笑的回忆,有助平复情绪。
人生,实在很需要,一群和你如出生入死,同你经历过风风雨雨的死党。
就这样吧! :)
今天得了教训,算是蛮狠的,误以为考试时间为三个小时,导致没能完成考卷,于是心理不平衡。
有些话想对妈说,有时候,我们得接受别人的不完美,弄清背后的故事再做判断吧! 换个角度,也许,就不用担心那么多未发生的事情了。坦白说,上了大学,谈了恋爱,和父母沟通闲聊的时间真的少之又少,我很惭愧,可是,却做不出什么改变。好无奈啊! 大学生活真的有那么充实到剥夺我和家人共处的时间吗?还是是我自己把时间分配得不好?相信,是后者吧!
要感谢挫折,它让你看清自己要的是什么,更了解自己。
在情绪低落时,偶尔,回想起过去让你捧腹大笑的回忆,有助平复情绪。
人生,实在很需要,一群和你如出生入死,同你经历过风风雨雨的死党。
就这样吧! :)
今天得了教训,算是蛮狠的,误以为考试时间为三个小时,导致没能完成考卷,于是心理不平衡。
有些话想对妈说,有时候,我们得接受别人的不完美,弄清背后的故事再做判断吧! 换个角度,也许,就不用担心那么多未发生的事情了。坦白说,上了大学,谈了恋爱,和父母沟通闲聊的时间真的少之又少,我很惭愧,可是,却做不出什么改变。好无奈啊! 大学生活真的有那么充实到剥夺我和家人共处的时间吗?还是是我自己把时间分配得不好?相信,是后者吧!
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Hey, I want to slap myself too!
Hah! I thought getting satisfying grades is enough for midterm.
In actual fact, the grade was ruined by the assignment.
Okay, fine then, I will pay more effort on my following semester assignment.
And erm, after more and more consideration, deciding to make my blog private.
Just like, my friend out there, blog is just so private :P
And mum, can you please don't read my blog? Hahahahah! I know you will be reading this.
Reporting of Finals, bought 3 new pens and none of it survived till 3 hours of examination for Business Law paper. That's so sad. Thanks to my friend for giving me pens to sit for my English Language paper.
Alright, gonna stop here and get back to study.
Sorry YouNoan, for didn't reply back to your post.
Very touched to received a post from you on your blog. Seriously.
Sorry again, didn't make up a date for you. Let's do it after finals la.
Thank you very much for the blogpost. Appreciate it much :))
In actual fact, the grade was ruined by the assignment.
Okay, fine then, I will pay more effort on my following semester assignment.
And erm, after more and more consideration, deciding to make my blog private.
Just like, my friend out there, blog is just so private :P
And mum, can you please don't read my blog? Hahahahah! I know you will be reading this.
Reporting of Finals, bought 3 new pens and none of it survived till 3 hours of examination for Business Law paper. That's so sad. Thanks to my friend for giving me pens to sit for my English Language paper.
Alright, gonna stop here and get back to study.
Sorry YouNoan, for didn't reply back to your post.
Very touched to received a post from you on your blog. Seriously.
Sorry again, didn't make up a date for you. Let's do it after finals la.
Thank you very much for the blogpost. Appreciate it much :))
Saturday, June 1, 2013
It's YOU n o a n's 21st!
There you go the most gorgeous Sonia Ng You Noan without braces & with her beautiful teeth!
You Noan, what a nice & unique name in Chinese and English, seriously, your name is the most special!
Talking about this patternful girl I've met ever since NS and now my course mate in USM,
You're the most mysterious yet patternful friend I've ever had.
Being so hard yet so easy to reach your heart, making me feel that you're so lonely deep down like you need a true friend that you can really trust for 101% so that you get to pour everything out to him/her.
I'm blessed that I could meet you in USM again, and I can't imagine my life now without you.
You are one of the best friend that everyone could ever had.
Having you as a friend is one of the best thing I am grateful for.
Thank you for always being there for me.
Thank you for everything you have done and given to me.
Thank you for trusting me and sharing your life with me.
No matter how, I am always here for you kay?
Sometimes, you just can't hide so much. It's okay to be yourself and say what you wanted to :)
It's your day today, finally a legal grown-up.
Keeping up with your good work on photography and other special skills you have la.
Will support you to the max! :D
May you be well and happy always with your life !
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!
Hearts you <3
Monday, May 20, 2013
something that I should at least be greatful
Throughout this whole semester, it seems that there are so many unhappy moments that I've gone through.
In fact, I didn't give up on any of my task and basically, I'm trying my best to do the best I can.
I contributed and given my best commitment which I thought it could repay me with something worthy. However, the reality of this society where people will not remember what so good you have done, but easily, they can condemn you with your mistake. That is an ugly yet sad truth.
And things came out of my expectation, I always thought that we can see one's capabilities from our eyes. However, people always have different perceptions on things, so that is beyond my control. And I shall stop my comment on that.
There are so many times where I thought my friends can be very frank with me, but all I heard was from people's mouth regarding how they actually felt. Guess they wanted to, but they know they shouldn't. Hey, I have the rights to know and what are true friends when things turn out to be not so true?
To be frank, I didn't stay in my hostel anymore and I left my room mate crying for nights. So, you can say I am a bad room mate? I will leave that to you. but do remember, everything happens for a reason. Anyway, this is not going to distance me and my room mate. Remember I told you, we look for long term not only short term kay, sueling tan?
Have you ever felt like people taking you for granted and you don't feel appreciated when you have done something good for people? Do you continue giving the best you can, or you stop doing so?
Only two semester left, I shall not quit as I've given so much to my society. Not worth to do it now, no matter how tough it will be, I shall stay and try my best to make things right. I know I hated so much on the stressful life I had during the last two semester, what should I be afraid of when the worst had already passed. I want to be happy with life, running away from problem is not the way to solve problems. Come on, it is just a small obstacle in front of me, I believe I can do much better on that.
For my peers who wanted to leave, I wish them the best for their decision. I should respect it, though deep down I really don't want any of them to quit. Do you guys still remember how did we actually become close friends in uni, and what had once make us feel so united to be in a circle? I just want to look things on a brighter side. I realized I've been so much negative ever since I started my so called university life.
I understand their reasons for quitting because I was one of them who had the thought, too. It is a norm like you just remember all those awful moments which had made you so damn frustrated but you've forgotten what had once make you feel happy. It is the same as the ugly truth I've stated above. When there is no hope, we have the power to light up the situation. So, it all depends on us. We have the power to change.
Till now, I've run away so far from my title which I planned to write. I felt so greatful that I still have my dearest man to be with me in all the hard times. I couldn't love you less for you are the one who had given so much to me. And now, you might think, nah, your blog post is about Ivan again?! No, you are absolutely wrong. I just wanted to be greatful for what I had. Also, to my parents, who are always there to help me out.
Actually, I feel happy with my mid term grades. Although it is just a mid term, it still an achievement for me. I hope I will have the urge to continue to strive until my final. Ooops. No, I haven't started my revision. Shall claim something from my parents. :P All I did was last minute work for my midterm but it proves that short term memory helps much in answering questions.
Indeed, I feel lost, still. But, I'm finding my way back. Guess I deserve a LIKE for this post? You guys keep on giving me NO LIKE for quite some time already.
I wish everyone in every stage of their life the very best in everything you do. When you feel like giving up, remember to think about the reason why you hold on for so long.
In fact, I didn't give up on any of my task and basically, I'm trying my best to do the best I can.
I contributed and given my best commitment which I thought it could repay me with something worthy. However, the reality of this society where people will not remember what so good you have done, but easily, they can condemn you with your mistake. That is an ugly yet sad truth.
And things came out of my expectation, I always thought that we can see one's capabilities from our eyes. However, people always have different perceptions on things, so that is beyond my control. And I shall stop my comment on that.
There are so many times where I thought my friends can be very frank with me, but all I heard was from people's mouth regarding how they actually felt. Guess they wanted to, but they know they shouldn't. Hey, I have the rights to know and what are true friends when things turn out to be not so true?
To be frank, I didn't stay in my hostel anymore and I left my room mate crying for nights. So, you can say I am a bad room mate? I will leave that to you. but do remember, everything happens for a reason. Anyway, this is not going to distance me and my room mate. Remember I told you, we look for long term not only short term kay, sueling tan?
Have you ever felt like people taking you for granted and you don't feel appreciated when you have done something good for people? Do you continue giving the best you can, or you stop doing so?
Only two semester left, I shall not quit as I've given so much to my society. Not worth to do it now, no matter how tough it will be, I shall stay and try my best to make things right. I know I hated so much on the stressful life I had during the last two semester, what should I be afraid of when the worst had already passed. I want to be happy with life, running away from problem is not the way to solve problems. Come on, it is just a small obstacle in front of me, I believe I can do much better on that.
For my peers who wanted to leave, I wish them the best for their decision. I should respect it, though deep down I really don't want any of them to quit. Do you guys still remember how did we actually become close friends in uni, and what had once make us feel so united to be in a circle? I just want to look things on a brighter side. I realized I've been so much negative ever since I started my so called university life.
I understand their reasons for quitting because I was one of them who had the thought, too. It is a norm like you just remember all those awful moments which had made you so damn frustrated but you've forgotten what had once make you feel happy. It is the same as the ugly truth I've stated above. When there is no hope, we have the power to light up the situation. So, it all depends on us. We have the power to change.
Till now, I've run away so far from my title which I planned to write. I felt so greatful that I still have my dearest man to be with me in all the hard times. I couldn't love you less for you are the one who had given so much to me. And now, you might think, nah, your blog post is about Ivan again?! No, you are absolutely wrong. I just wanted to be greatful for what I had. Also, to my parents, who are always there to help me out.
Actually, I feel happy with my mid term grades. Although it is just a mid term, it still an achievement for me. I hope I will have the urge to continue to strive until my final. Ooops. No, I haven't started my revision. Shall claim something from my parents. :P All I did was last minute work for my midterm but it proves that short term memory helps much in answering questions.
Indeed, I feel lost, still. But, I'm finding my way back. Guess I deserve a LIKE for this post? You guys keep on giving me NO LIKE for quite some time already.
I wish everyone in every stage of their life the very best in everything you do. When you feel like giving up, remember to think about the reason why you hold on for so long.
Friday, May 17, 2013
pieces of shit
I just need a way, a direction.
I don't wanna live up with people's expectation, but why is it so hard to do?
Can I just don't give a damn on that?
I don't like it when people tends to hide their true feelings, come on, tell me and i'll feel better.
Why talk to me so mean? It hurts so much inside.
Feel so damn awful without knowing the reason why.
I thought we were all true to each other?
Damn it. Hate it. Screw it.
Saturday, April 27, 2013
请珍惜你还没上大学的生活
上了大学，才发现：
1. 中学生活是多么多么的爽，幸好我有珍惜那些日子。
2. 大学生活充实到你不能想象的地步，意义未知。
3. 旧朋友的踏实、真诚、好相处，这点并不代表大学交不到知心朋友。只是，两者还是有差。
4. 大学生在十二点可以就床入睡时很神奇的事，十二点？！这么早？！
5. 大学生的生活消费真的很高。
6. 忙活动忙到自己觉得自找麻烦，会瞬间很想把全部的事情抛掉，安份的做一位平凡的学生就好。可是，无可否认，在大学时，也很需要建立自己的个人简历，社交，其他等等的能力。
7. 中学的课本是如此的薄，简说又有重点，易懂，废话又少。以前的我，尽然还嫌中学课本文字太多，图画太少。
8. 上了大学，最厉害的是，在一天内，读完半本课本，高达 200-300 页数。读完后，也不懂自己读了什么，资料一大堆，又读不到重点，以为我们真的很神酱？考完试又不讨论，只会做 kertas tertutup, 就凭你希望题目可以再循环，你就可以不用让学生知道自己在考试犯的错?! 你的试考来做么？！就只为了你要交的学生成绩单，只为了考试而考试，不用考更好，我呸！
9. 就因为大学是被中央政府管制的，州政府的钱我们就不可以拿？！ 一切和槟州政府的人都不可以踏进学校？！政治话题不能被讨论，学校撑中央政府，学生是不是也一定要“假假”支持中央政府？！这样的烂规矩也可以行得通！我呸！这更本就不是我在 P.A 课本所学到的！
10. 大学生活，尽然剥夺了我那么多的时间，想要好好休息，享受生活，挥霍青春也不能，这也只能怪自己的时间管理做得不好。这点我就认了！
11. 想一想，大学生活，没有一点让我可以觉得开心或欣慰的地方，很可悲。
12. 我的大学生活，过了两个学期，到底我学到了什么，懂了什么，也未知，真的有够可悲。
13. 还是，以前的生活好。至少忙得有价值，几乎没有压力。从来不会让生活带给自己任何压力，感谢充实的大学生活，让我体会到各种各样的精神压力，课业压力，等等说不完的压力。
很开心可以乘机在这里小发泄一下，荒废了我的部落格那么久，真的对常常来关注我的朋友很不好意思，好想念以前一直更新帖子的日子，很多启发，很多在这里成长，记录生活上大大小小的事情的日子。现在，想要花时间经营部落格都难！谢谢你们，读完我的废话。
晚安！
ps: 我到底有多久没有好好善用我的相机了啊？我的摄影文件夹好久好久没有更新了？难道我的生活，已经没有可以留下纪念价值的意义了吗？好伤心啊！
1. 中学生活是多么多么的爽，幸好我有珍惜那些日子。
2. 大学生活充实到你不能想象的地步，意义未知。
3. 旧朋友的踏实、真诚、好相处，这点并不代表大学交不到知心朋友。只是，两者还是有差。
4. 大学生在十二点可以就床入睡时很神奇的事，十二点？！这么早？！
5. 大学生的生活消费真的很高。
6. 忙活动忙到自己觉得自找麻烦，会瞬间很想把全部的事情抛掉，安份的做一位平凡的学生就好。可是，无可否认，在大学时，也很需要建立自己的个人简历，社交，其他等等的能力。
7. 中学的课本是如此的薄，简说又有重点，易懂，废话又少。以前的我，尽然还嫌中学课本文字太多，图画太少。
8. 上了大学，最厉害的是，在一天内，读完半本课本，高达 200-300 页数。读完后，也不懂自己读了什么，资料一大堆，又读不到重点，以为我们真的很神酱？考完试又不讨论，只会做 kertas tertutup, 就凭你希望题目可以再循环，你就可以不用让学生知道自己在考试犯的错?! 你的试考来做么？！就只为了你要交的学生成绩单，只为了考试而考试，不用考更好，我呸！
9. 就因为大学是被中央政府管制的，州政府的钱我们就不可以拿？！ 一切和槟州政府的人都不可以踏进学校？！政治话题不能被讨论，学校撑中央政府，学生是不是也一定要“假假”支持中央政府？！这样的烂规矩也可以行得通！我呸！这更本就不是我在 P.A 课本所学到的！
10. 大学生活，尽然剥夺了我那么多的时间，想要好好休息，享受生活，挥霍青春也不能，这也只能怪自己的时间管理做得不好。这点我就认了！
11. 想一想，大学生活，没有一点让我可以觉得开心或欣慰的地方，很可悲。
12. 我的大学生活，过了两个学期，到底我学到了什么，懂了什么，也未知，真的有够可悲。
13. 还是，以前的生活好。至少忙得有价值，几乎没有压力。从来不会让生活带给自己任何压力，感谢充实的大学生活，让我体会到各种各样的精神压力，课业压力，等等说不完的压力。
很开心可以乘机在这里小发泄一下，荒废了我的部落格那么久，真的对常常来关注我的朋友很不好意思，好想念以前一直更新帖子的日子，很多启发，很多在这里成长，记录生活上大大小小的事情的日子。现在，想要花时间经营部落格都难！谢谢你们，读完我的废话。
晚安！
ps: 我到底有多久没有好好善用我的相机了啊？我的摄影文件夹好久好久没有更新了？难道我的生活，已经没有可以留下纪念价值的意义了吗？好伤心啊！
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
these days
What can I say and what can I conclude?
Bring me back to Life?
Perhaps, me myself can help in this situation.
Never been so bad with life.
Tired, extremely, mentally.
Not happy yet satisfied.
Need some sense of freedom.
Need some time alone? To sort things out?
Make things clear?
Argh.
Don't come and ask me how am I doing cause I'm not able to answer you too.
I know what I should do so just leave me alone.
I just need this place to express myself.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
14th day of February
To my dear love, a song for you. <3
I love this song very much you know :)
No words could ever describe how much you mean to me.
I hoped you love the card I've made for you.
It's the very first time I made a card for someone so special like you.
Thank you for being part of my life.
I wish I could spend more time together with you for the rest of the days.
I'm so looking forward to the day you're coming back to pg.
Let's go dating more often okay? :D
Thank you for the words you've wrote and the phone talks we've made.
See you my dear!
Happy Valentine's Day!
Lots of Love,
Yi Ling Tan
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