these days

What can I say and what can I conclude?

Bring me back to Life? 

Perhaps, me myself can help in this situation. 

Never been so bad with life.

Tired, extremely, mentally. 

Not happy yet satisfied. 

Need some sense of freedom. 

Need some time alone? To sort things out?  

Make things clear?  

Argh. 

Don't come and ask me how am I doing cause I'm not able to answer you too. 

I know what I should do so just leave me alone. 

I just need this place to express myself.

14th day of February

To my dear love, a song for you. <3

I love this song very much you know  :)

No words could ever describe how much you mean to me.

I hoped you love the card I've made for you.

It's the very first time I made a card for someone so special like you.

Thank you for being part of my life.

I wish I could spend more time together with you for the rest of the days.

I'm so looking forward to the day you're coming back to pg.

Let's go dating more often okay? :D

Thank you for the words you've wrote and the phone talks we've made. 

See you my dear!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Lots of Love, 

Yi Ling Tan 

Happy 21st Birthday to My Dearest Boyfriend !!!

Oh it's your day and how can I don't write you a birthday post?

You want it in Chinese again? No way! I'm not going to post it in Chinese cause I think it's really too mushy to write it in Chinese.

It's your 21st birthday but too bad I couldn't be there to celebrate together with you. So sad! :((

By the way, boyfriend ah boyfriend, when do you want to write me a blogpost to express you love to  me huh?

When only are you willing to converse with me in your pro amo huh?

When only can you sing a song for me huh?

Ask you to do something so easy for me got so hard mehhh?

Hana hana, back to some sweet wishes here.

First, I'm really glad that I always have you with me.

You are the only one who make my heartbeats goes @!%#$@^%$&

And also the only one who can make me cry so easily.

I couldn't afford to lose you as you are already irreplaceable in my heart.

No one has ever comes in to my life like the way you did.

What had happened between us is something I never ever imagine it would happened on me.

That's why there's situation where I don't know my role as a girlfriend.

What can I give to you, and what can make us better.

I might be good as a friend but not girlfriend.

I'm here to apologize that sometimes I don't behave rationally and all my immature attitudes. 

You gave me a lot of freedoms which is one of the important thing I need in life.

You treat me so perfectly good like no one else ever did this to me before.

I love the way you accept me for who I am and you never wanna change me.

You are simply too good to be true. 

Words couldn't express how glad I am that we fall for each other.

And no words can show how deep is my love for  you.

I bet we have the same feelings.

I missed you when you're not around and this is my very first time how bad I miss someone.

And I'm so excited that I can see you in two days time!!!

I just miss everything about you.

You made my life so complete. 

I wish we can go as far as we can and we'll love for each other more deeply day by day.

Hey dear, do remember that you can always come to me when you need me and i'll always be there for you

Let us be happy whenever we're together because that's what lover supposed to be ? 

I promise I'll try my best to make you happy every day :))

Thank you for loving me with all your heart.

And I want you to know that, I love you, too, from the bottom of my heart.

Once again, Happy 21st Birthday!
Have fun and do enjoy your day to the fullest!

Love,

e0 tan :P

想你了

请允许我在未来的blogpost写下很多肉麻的话。。。
没办法，有些东西我一定要表达才甘愿。
就在夜深人静的时候，很莫名的想念和你打打闹闹的日子。
只是短短的几天没有你在我身边的日子，就觉得好像少了些什么。
不是不能没有你，只是很希望此时此刻你就在我身边。
其实，再过几天就能够见到你了，也只需再多忍耐一下。
总觉得时间过得很慢, 可不可以每天睁开眼睛，就可以看到你躺在我身边?
从来没有那么想见一个人，从来没有那么想听一个人的声音。
我知道，你在那里也一样很想我。
我, 何得何能值得让你对我那么好,我的人生真的没什么可以埋怨的。
有你的日子，我更幸福了。

方家文，我想你了!
你怎么可以那么惹人爱?!

He's leavin

 

One day left. 

My man is going back to his hometown far far away from here. 

 Hope to see him again in 2 weeks time. 

 :D

Gonna miss him super damn much.

I'm having extraordinary good life with him around.

It's hard to believe I'm being loved so deeply by this man. 

 Hopefully I'll be alright when you're not around. 

Ahhh, it's so hard to see you leave.

Words couldn't express how I feel either.

I just wanna spend more time with him. 

Days with the beloved ones are the best day of my life. 

Take care my dear boyfriend.

Enjoy your sem break in swak and don't forget to miss me when you're free. 

Love you more and more each day <3

not prepared for finals

Sometimes when someone tries to treats you good, all you have to do is to accept it and say thank you. Somehow I notice the reason I'm not blogging for so long is because after start schooling, I rarely have time with myself. To stop and think what kind of people I've become. Because I'm always very occupied and busy with uni life until I have no time for myself. In short, I think less. This study break I really couldn't focus at all. Part of the reason, I finally have time to take a break and a deep breath. To relax and enjoy life. In the meantime, I'm already in holiday mood. Again, I'm gonna study for the sake of my parents not for myself. I'm not even prepared for finals. Still, hopefully I won't die till gai gai. Culture shock, not prepared to study so hard for a first semester management degree course. Excuse la. Slap me. Hahaha.

20122012

In this special 20122012 day that could only happened for once in a life time, I have something to say and to express. Before this day ends, I would like to say with my deepest heart, I'll always be there for you no matter how tough life could be. I have to take this chance to confess before I have any regrets in life. You're irreplaceable, you're true, you're sincere and you're always mine. Love happens when no one ever realize and no one ever knows why. You came into my life and took my breath away. Life turns out to be more meaningful with you by my side. I love to love you and being loved by you. You made me the luckiest girl ever in the world. You're just too good to be true. :) navignoop, I love you and I'll always do <3

Dark Side by Kelly Clarkson

或许,时间真的是很关建的因素。

或许,我所担心的,都是有必要担心的。

来得快,去得快。

在关建时刻,还是要可以理智去思考什么才是最适和自己的。

要控制好自己的情绪,才能理智判断。

加油!

new chapter of life

Finally, I'm officially registered as an undergraduate student in Universiti Sains Malaysia under School of Management majoring in Management.

Talking about my Universiti, after all the comparison, I believe I have nothing more to complain about my hostel as it seems like I have the best of all. Clean, big, well-maintained, nice scenery from my hostel. I love the place though it is far from our main campus. It takes more than 30 minutes to reach my school. To be frank, I never walk to my school, I drive without sticker everyday, so I predict the time is 40 minutes. However, we do have commuter inside school. So, it makes everything nice and convenient.

About my roommate, I'm thankful I have a very great roommate all the way from Taiping, Perak. 

She's Tan Sue Ling. We get along very well in few days time and we can already communicate through face expression. She somehow can read my mind at times. That is all I hoped for, to be understand. We live together as roommate happily and I hope things will goes well until the end.

Back to my course mate, seriously, I started to feel the peer pressure. For my management course, from what I heard, there are many who scored very high pointer and they started studying already. Always very efficient completing the assignments given. It is just the first week, we already have 5 assignments to be completed. Seriously? Not relaxing ah. 80% out of 300 people are mainly Chinese, I rather we have more other races and it won't be that competitive.

For my lecture and lecturers, what I can conclude is, university life is all about self studying, manage your own time promptly, be alert on what is happening, plan your course units. Lecturers teach according to the slides, you need not to take down the notes, because all the power point slides will be posted into E-learning. As far for now, I haven't met any lousy lecturers. Hehe.

I took Japanese for this first semester and I enjoyed the class. I supposed to take the English class but due to  the 'excellence result' I obtained in MUET, the level of English class offered by my University which I supposed to take for my band I got in MUET, gave the priority to seniors in second and third year. So, to fulfill the credits, I chose Japanese and I'm loving it.

Cafeteria and food, good thing I have car, I choose to go out of campus to have my lunch and dinner almost everyday. Had supper for few nights and enjoyed the moment coming back hostel late where the gate closed and we have this 'kad siswa' to carry out the 'touch n go' action. Basically, what we have here mostly is Malay food, and a few Chinese stalls. Haven't finished exploring other hostel's food. Not forgetting to mention, there are a lot of cats around which is quite annoying to us. =.=  What can we do, there are many cat lovers who provide free food to them. When there are endless food supply, cat will always be around us. It make sense.

Another thing to mention, I've successfully been selected as the first year representative for our management society. I'm one of the 27 and been chosen out of 100. Wondering what are the things I could learn with the team, and all the activities that awaiting us to be planned and accomplished.


Indeed, beginning is always the hardest. I have to be well prepared for all the circumstances in the future.
Never give up and to do more self improvement in order to be a better person for my own good.
I decided not to compare myself with others but to the person who I was yesterday.
Give me some courage, okay?  =)

I guess I've written more than enough. =D Good night people!