Friday, December 19, 2008

S A G G I T A R I U S

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么,但是她一直都很清楚,她不想要的是什么。  

她总喜欢做幕后的看客,冷冷地,静静地看着一切,在她眼里,一切都在她的意料之中,她并不觉得有什么是新奇的 如果她表现得新奇,那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人,永远置身事外。     

你不要责怪她冷漠,这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬,随时竖起自己身上的刺,但她的刺不会伤人,她只是用来武装自己。    

她不敢要太多的爱,她怕享受完爱之后,剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时,她不但不会欣喜,反而会惊惧地逃走,她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱, 如果你得到她的喜爱,那是因为她已经知道如何面对,如何回报了。    

她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。      

她懂得爱人,但她不习惯爱人,她知道爱往往伴随着恨,而恨,是太沉重的伤痛, 也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛,也就懒得去恨,于是,为了防范恨与痛的到来, 她只好选择不爱,即使爱,也是淡淡的,冷冷的。别怪她,她是真的不知道如何专注。     

她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她,她之所以选择虚伪,那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事, 她不习惯承诺,也不懂得拒绝,她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过,只好令自己难过。     

她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力,她将自己想得太坚强,而把别人想得太脆弱。 她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道,受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来, 她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样,将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。        

别以为她很洒脱,很多时候,她其实是放不下的-——比任何人都要敏感,都要细腻,但她不会让你知道,她明白,即使你知道了,也是无济于事 她的心是把握不住的风,她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。    

她不是不想平静, 她只是找不到平静的理由,她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色,她只有不停地寻求,寻求自己最终的目的。    

如果她找到了,她会毫不犹豫地停下来, 从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾,她永远也不会满足,她的追求永不停止。她的心再累,无法逼迫自己放弃梦想,梦想是她唯一的支撑点     

千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅,她非常渴求完美,虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美, 但,她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望,她会不可挽回地离开,即使她的心在滴血,即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命,她也绝不回头。      

那个时候,你在她脸上所看到的,是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边,她的心也早就离你十万八千里,你看不到她的恨,但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。     

她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊,也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。 不要问她为什么这样善变,她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时,千万不要迷惑,不管她看起来是多么的疯狂,她内心其实是冷静的,她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤, 她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。    

因为她觉得这是义务,也是权利,她是制造气氛的能手,她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来,但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁。    

她并不如你们看到的那么快乐,同样,也不如你们看到的那么忧伤,只是,她忧郁时, 喜欢带上快乐的面具,而当她快乐时,忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。      

在她的世界里,盛着的不是快乐的源泉,而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她, 笑起来像一个孩子,你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是,你若有心, 你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤,还有她的眼底,竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道 她只有在午夜无人的时候,才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助,她的彷徨,她的沧桑。     

她心里的,是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强,只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。   

超准的!

你同意吗?

在此

只想和大家一起分享我的星座

=)

   

Monday, December 1, 2008

30.11.08


a birthday cake from my dearest friend =)


the natural one .


vaining .


yiruey . yiling


regina . yiling . yiruey


the birthday girl =P


lots and lots of thank you
i would i like to say in this post!
let's start off with SMS.

before twelve
`YEE PHENG`
`YI YEN`
`DEIDRE`

on twelve
`liangkeat`
`huiying`
`yinyee`
`khai ying`
`sherlene`
`jiahui`
`xiangxiang`
`yanduan`
`miyuki`
`khangchien`
`mayjing`
`regina`
`chawyeh`
`puiyin`
`yiruey`

after twelve
`chiewpoh`
`zhaomin`
`liewching`
`jiayu`
`yilin`
`xiawei`
`sherlynn`
`hanmay`
`whooimeen`
`tammy`
`yujuin`
`yingqi`
`yenling`
`tzeshyan`
`ziyu`
`DAD`
`xu-peng`
`haoyun`
`chunmun`
`amelyn`
`booteik`
`aunt`
`li-chieen`
`laykun`
`michelle`
`adeline`
`eva`
`hweichee`
`deanjiun`
`huiyin`
`yewyi`
`chunsin`

belated
`tingying`
`shingying`

special year i could say
i received calls when clock strikes twelve


1st Call
SHU MIN
2nd Call
JIN JIE
3rd Call
HOOI XIN + JIA JIA
4th Call
XUE TING
5TH CALL
UNCLE + AUNTIE

hooixin n jiajia failed to fool me
but never mind
i knew that they do plan it hard
LOL

To my beloved juniors
THANKS for the BBQ PARTY!!
I know you all used a lot of money and strength
to organize the whole party
I'm touched in my heart
but of course i did not cry. XP

To those who gave me presents and cards
I love all the presents
and I do love CARDS very much!
I apologize if I did not thank you all on the spot
I'll Thank all of you here
I'll appreciate all the presents and cards you all gave!
It means a lot to me

Lastly
Is an extraordinary birthday for me
wearing uniforms and taught public CPR
tiring yet meaningful

P/S
I treasure my friendship with the one who care me lots
I think you know who you are.
SO
-FRIENDSHIP REMAINS-

Once again
I'll wish myself a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
I wish I could be happy always
That is the most important thing to me =)







Tuesday, November 18, 2008

TAGGED by LEL

1. What's your ambition ?
no ambition

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Friends of course

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
never

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
sometimes yes but sometimes no

5. How many babies you want?
i don't really want

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes of course

7. What is your goal for this year?
it suppose to be improving in my studies but i failed to

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
yea i do

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
humorous, caring, loving, sociable, funny, romantic, cute, gentlemen, truthful, dependable

10. List 5 characteristic of your best friend.
considerate, caring, honest, creative, hardworking

11. What is your bad habit?
not punctual enough

12. What's your opinion with Distance relationship?
hard to maintain

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
duh. of course

14. What does flying means to you?
freedom


15. What do you crave for the most currently?
sweet 16th =P

16. Are you single/relationship?
single ..

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
one with the same name with me

18. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
be optimistic

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
how would i know how to predict my future?

20. How do you spend your holidays ?
trainings. watching series n tv. online. travel. camping

Instructions: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people. List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings.

I tag LILIAN . XU-PENG . YYNN . DEIDRE . YENLING

Thursday, November 13, 2008

中四生涯篇


不知不觉,我已步入中四的尾端。
其实,非常之不舍。


中四在学校的日子
几乎每一天

〈早去学校〉
〈在班上睡觉〉
〈都有人来班上找我〉
〈抄功课〉
〈十二点就上床睡觉〉
〈吃经济饭〉
〈喝橙汁〉
〈忙课外活动〉
〈与同样的人聊天〉

虽然是下午班

我却跟上午班的学生没两样


我的小瓜们
你们
让我体会了不少
我很喜欢你们
也再也没有机会
好好与你们相处
虽然
你们很爱玩
有时
真是拿你们没办法
我也无可奈何
只好乖乖的就范
也陪了你们一起疯
谢谢你们一直以来
给予我的鼓励和妥协
我珍惜
我只期望
你们不会离开这大家庭
没有了你们
我们的大家庭也不可能成立

若曾怪错了你们
请多包涵



同班同学
首先
谢谢你们陪我疯了一整年
无法想象
没有你们
就不会有今年的S4E
很爽
我想感谢
`我的知心朋友`
SHERLYNN . ADELINE
`和我同姓的疯人`
陈紫红 。 陈茹琳
`班上的所有同学`
`
我可爱的老师们`
Pn. Teo Huey Hun
Cik. Goo Ching Ching
En. Chew Yee Soon
En. Oon Soon Lee
En. Wong Wai Yi
Cik. Low Bee Leng
Cik. Tan Guat Beng
Cik. Yasodah Haridas
Cik. Sew Lay Ching
Pn. Lim Puoi Li
Ah MAN
etc etc
[ 由于有些课我没听所以老师的名字我也不懂 ]
老师
虽然你们都不可能读到这一段

我还是想要感激你们
在我睡觉时
没吵醒我
还有
特别感谢
那排名前三位的老师
谢谢你们
容忍那爱捣蛋的我
体谅我的累
接受那爱顶嘴的我
你们的忍耐度
让我钦佩不已
谢谢!

我什么都没有
就是朋友多


我的`猪朋狗友`们
在这整年的日子里
谢谢你们
陪我度过美好的每一天
你们
在我人生里
增添了不少的色彩
我会珍惜
你们为我做过的任何事情
在我最需要朋友的时候
扶了我一把
也给予我最大的扶持
在我生命中
我真的真的
不能没有了你们
特别感谢
有收到杯子的朋友
那杯子已代表了
你们在我心目中
有着特别的地位
有你们做我的朋友
我感到很幸福

最后
也少不了最重要的两个人

我爸.我妈
参与活动的是我

我也不知不觉
连累了你们不少
其实我
非常依赖你们
没了你们
我也应该活不下去
你们日日夜夜
忙着载我
忙着招待我的朋友
忙着收拾在家里留下的残局
我为团体牺牲
你们却为我牺牲
我很感动
感恩

虽然以上我所写的你们也未必读到

我只想抒发我一年来的感情



Saturday, November 8, 2008

G . R . A . N . D . M . A

this is the CUTE pic of my granny.
cute?



my cousin and my ah ma.



ahma was trying to kepo with what my cousin bro was eating.



hand injured! sobx T.T



finally, quite yam de me and HER.



these are the pictures that were taken on our family day in ISLAND RED CAFE


hmm.. through these pictures
can you sense the CUTENESS of my ahma ?
If you did.. then you've been fooled by the pics

first and foremost..
I can't deny she is very annoying
she can COMPLAIN the same thing for the whole day
and cause sound pollution indirectly
everytime I'll just escape from the scene whenever she starts the engine
things that she repeat such as :
+scolding the same person with her TOOT wordings+
+blaming how suffer her life is+
+blaming her daughter's husband+
+blaming her daughters+
+how hungry she is+
+how uncomfortable staying in anyone's house+
etc etc..


maybe you'll wonder how she could repeat the same thing without feeling bored huh?
let me tell you
she can twist here and there
by changing ayat dasar to ayat songsang
wow
fantastic!
ayah dasar: wa jin jia eiao..bo beh mi kia ho wa jiak ar?!
ayat songsang: bo beh mi kia ho wa jiak ar..wa jin jia eiao!

or

ayat aktif to ayat pasif
ayat aktif: wa bo mi kia jiak eh eiao si arr..
ayat pasif: wa eh eiao si arr asi bo jiak mi kia..


there are still something that is more exciting
i remember once
she go into her room
come out that time
she ask me
'ah ling ar.. lu tao tek(steal) wa eh te kor(panties) hior?'
I was like
oh my god!!!
then she continue
'wa eh te kor(panties) lu pun beh cheng(cant wear) siao leng(too loose)'
and I was like
'ho sim lar.. ju zui(who) ai tao tek lu eh te kor?'
my mum and dad beside already laughing non-stop
then she go into the room again
come out and say
'ah ling ar.. lu wu tao tek wa eh lai bin sar(bra) o?'
I replied ' ah ma ar!!!!'
then ran upstairs
lmao


she is now already 80 years old
she is consider quite strong d according to her age
she is very FORGETFUL
she can ask me
'ah ling ar.. lu tak(study) form4 asi form5?'
due to her hearing problem
I didn't shout at her
it will waste my strength shouting at her
she could hardly hear it
just show her '4'
then she say
'wa.. aneh tua han liao'
she look at the tv for a moment
then ask me again
'ah ling ar.. lu tak form4 liao asi form5?'
show her again '4'
then she replied again
'ha..ah ling tak form4 liao..tua han liao'
this conversation can repeat at least 2 times n up to 10 times
I'm not kidding
I'm used to it
so I'll just stand by my hand '4' there


the sad part is
she is aging very fast
totally not under my expectation
she no longer can do the things that she can do last time
when she was taking care of me
during my primarys

last time ..
= she can cook for me
= she can accompany me to wait for the bus
= she can help me to tidy my messy things
= she can clean and tidy the whole house
= she can go to market to buy anything she want
= she can wake me up when I was late by singing songs
= she can give me angpau with a larger amount of money =P

now ..
- she spit all over the toilet bowl and basin
- she simply use a cloth to wipe her mouth
- she simply throw useful things into the dustbin without noticing
- she walk with tongkat
- her hand fractured causes her no strength to take heavy things
- walks very slow and somemore can't balance herself
- forget what she ate
- forget this and that


Usually
my mum's EQ is quite high no matter what situation
but my mum's EQ is not high dealing with my grandma
she cannot accept the way she scold ppl which is not wrong
she cannot accept she always blame the place she is staying
in short = my mum just could'nt accept her attitude
wait a minute
my mum is not bad
she still obey what my grandma wants
just i will be the victim as my mum will complain it to me
she treats her very well
buy her all the things that she wants
she take cares the things that we neglect
she will always remember to buy things for my granny to eat
she knows what she likes very well
compared to my dad
that is woman!
HAHA


In this case..
my EQ is much more higher than my mum ^^
at first
me myself also can't accept the changes of my granny
but later on
I start to accept
she is old
she is forgivable
NO HER NO ME
how could I dare to blame her?
I'll just take all the things she scold as nothing
although it hurts and unfair to that particular person
but what can I do?
that is her concept of mind
I can't change it
I just want her to satisfied and be happy with her life
I'm afraid one day she will leave us
so now
I'm taking pictures with her
and I'll appreciate
No matter how long she can still be with us
what I wish god could bless her with
staying HEALTHY always!
fortunately
till now
she have no any illness
the hand is just a minor fracture
she is still FINE!



AHMA!! WA AI LI!! =P



love you always
- ah ling-


Friday, October 31, 2008

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Sick-ed with myself !

friends out there

WAKE ME UP!!!!

exam is just around the corner
and i am so so so so LAZY to STUDY!!
damn stupid me!!


please HELP ME by reminding me to study!!!
I'm so into playing mood.
Argh!!!


I'M JUST SO SICK-ED WITH MYSELF! =(

Friday, October 3, 2008

伤 。






















我可以不计较一切

就是因为我重视
所以我在意


就因为那芝麻绿豆的小事
就已能判断
那心目中的地位


我的付出
没人了解
付出得再多
我又获得了什么
还不是一扫而空


在最需要鼓励的时候
给的
并不是我想要的


其实
我真的不像表面上的我
还是一句
伤到了
T.T