feel like blogging

Before I start, I intend to write this post in Chinese but I'm kinda lazy. So, let's see how it goes.. :D

随着脸书的热潮，感觉上，大家都渐渐忽略了写部落格的习惯，好像比较喜欢update脸书来记载生命里所发生的点点滴滴。

可是，对我而言，脸书的曝光率太大了，个人不是很喜欢和这么多人分享及曝露我的一切，所以选择不用脸书，也渐渐少了在这里和大家分享的习惯。真的真的很可惜。才发现在这里记在我的一切是多么的重要。真的很重要。

少了写写自己的生活，等于少了记得生命里应该值得和大家分享的，还有自己应该记得的。渐渐忘了如何感恩我所得到的一切，也忘了如何改变心境，如何让自己活得更开心，更知足。

也许，我生命的转折点，改变了不少事情。
也许，在大学遇到的人事物，改变了我如何看待我身边的一切。

还是很想说，我并不喜欢这两年的大学生活，很遗憾的，不管我怎么努力，我改变不了我这个心态。的确，这两年也让我看清了不少事情。在我还很清醒谁是真心对待我的时候，我想要感谢命运对我的眷顾，让我遇见了以下这些人：

我的好朋友，黄典君，还好有你，陪我分担了我在大学面对的一切，无形成了我的避风港。

我的好室友，陈雪琳，谢谢你默默地在我身后陪着我，有你，真的让我很安心。

我的战友们，希望你们知道你们是谁，也不觉得你们会到访这里，不过，真的很开心，可以遇到一班真心对待的大学朋友，很喜欢和你们相处的日子，也很不舍得这短短两年一起冲刺的日子，你们很棒！我很喜欢，也很爱你们！在大学的最大收获，莫过于有缘和你们创造金属与我们的回忆。

我的死党们，也不懂可以那样称呼你们吗，谢谢你们还愿意和钱送我生日礼物。不是忘了谢谢你们，只是觉得时间点有点不适合。很开心认识你们！

我的学弟妹，郑佩晶、黎复庆，你们所对我的好，真的很感动，在大学里遇过最感动的是，感受到你们对我的厚爱，谢谢你们，让我觉得和你们建立的感情，是多么的可靠，那么值得我去珍惜。你们两个都很棒，都让我觉得很骄傲，也庆幸有你们当我的directs！

我的学姐，赖秋好，有你当我的direct, 是多么的值得骄傲，再也很难找到像你那么周到、那么棒的人了。谢谢你无私的爱，还有多我们的宠爱，有你，真的很好！

我的中学朋友们，不管是否有在同一所大学，你们都让我觉得，看到你们，可以很安心的噼里啪啦乱说一通，完全不需要掩饰自己的想法，可以很真的做自己。

我的男朋友， 方艾文，请原谅我的自私，若有一天你受不了，决定离开我，我一定会放手让你走的。我完全可以理解我不值得你爱，也不值得你对我的好、更不值得你在我身上花时间。我知道你真的很爱我，也完全感受到你对我的真心诚意。只是，我太爱自己了， 也很注重自己的感受，把你搞得很茫然，这些我都懂。如果可以，请你认真地了解我，明白我需要的都是精神层面的交流和沟通而已。我也明白了，我需要的不是男朋友，而是了解我比我还了解自己的好朋友而已。

最后少不了无缘成为朋友的人，谢谢你们，让我看清，我们的友情是如此的脆弱，一碰就破。谢谢你们，让我知道，原以为可以做一辈子的朋友，不一定有着和我一样的信念。谢谢你们，让我感受到，号称朋友，却需要在对方面前戴面具是多么普骗的一件事。很抱歉，我不能陪你们玩这个猜心游戏，我还是喜欢对我坦诚、以及真正愿意和我交心的朋友，而你们，不是。

还有一些想法就是，明白了就算我多么想保护一些人被其他人/组织利用， 看着一些眼前的诱惑，他们还是会随波逐流地浩浩荡荡往你最不希望他们去的地方前进。咳，算了吧，有些人，就是要看到自己流血了，才知道前面是一道墙了。你的用心良苦，他们永远不明白。


ps: 谢谢你们耐心读完了这一篇，你们肯定关心我的，我真的感激万分！你们没有抛弃我！:D

When Odelia Ooi meets Stephanie Sun

Sun Yan Zi sticks her head to Ooi Dean Jiun

smaller version but clearer

blur version but bigger one.

Or just tell me what kind of sizes you want, perhaps? Hahahaha. 

Stephanie Sun hugs Odelia Ooi

So buddy, hope you enjoy and like this! Glad that we have made it to KL, to meet your Idol for life.

Thank God for all the unexpected surprises and the chances to interact with your Idol.

So happy and proud of you on stage! :D

And this is my very first GIF image for my very BEST FRIEND!

*lipstick putting on*

Cheer up! Life's getting better.

Hey Yi Ling Tan, now you see, life's getting better and better.
Do remember that don't give up so easily on life.
There are a lot of people who still cares about you.
You  have tonnes of awesome friends and world best family members one could ever had.
The one and only boyfriend who will always be by your side and the best roommates ever.
You have friends from far who still remember you on your birthday.
You have friends who will always fulfill your wishes on your birthday.
You have a good car to drive, so why worry?
Just live up your head, smile to the world, and live happily!

I don't wanna see you frown, so cheer up okay? :)))

Hello! I'm back!

Been having very bad days recently. When you don't even know how to describe the feeling to another person. When you don't even know which is the best way to solve the problems that come from nowhere. Like you don't even have any bad intention, but people treat you like you are a big fat enemy. LOL. calling myself a big fat enemy sounded very funny and relative. Hahaha. Read a quote somewhere which says, No one is obligated to treat you right. So nothing to be sad when someone hurts you. Treat yourself right and treasure those who appreciate you. I came to understand that, even you didn't ill-treat anyone, life will hit you back so hardly just that one time. Even if you really have given your best, that doesn't mean you will get the things back equally. There's still people who didn't treat you the way you hoping them to. I don't say? Life is never fair. Expectation is still the root of disappointments. I am just not expecting this to be happened as I really never thought of giving up on this, plus, never ever wanted something like this to happen. Honesty, is the best policy. It's alright to speak it out during critical moments. Silence will never solve problem, and it will certainly worsen the condition. Is that what you want? If this is the case, I sincerely hope that you are now happy with your life. It hurts, seriously. It is also, very disappointing, that some people exist to ruin something but not to mend the broken ones. What can you really benefit from not helping the situation, I wonder? Can you at least don't influence people to do something bad? I am so impressed yet feeling very horrible on what you have done. You're plain fake. It's my fault for making a conclusion this fast, at least, I know who are the ones who really care and being very true to me for my own good. Thanks to the ones who made me learned this lesson. Now I know who to trust, to share everything from my heart, and to keep them in my heart for a lifetime. Hope that one day, things will get better, not hoping for the best, but at least, not like what I'm facing now. 

Great! I can't wait to read what I've just posted to remind me how far I've become and the parts and parcel in my life that I couldn't forget. :D

ah ha!

Don't you feel tired?

Are you really feeling very happy with this?

Is this what you want?

How long it is that you like to revenge?

Are you satisfied with the impact you gave?

Have you ever thought of the consequences?

Do you really know what you're doing?


If you are giving positive answer, I congratulate you, because you've made it.

反思

承认吧，我就是自私。只想自己的，没有顾及别人的感受。

我就是不喜欢让自己痛苦，总是想着该怎么做才会让自己开心。

简单说，我就是活在自己的世界、以自我为中心。

或许，我也还没准备好和别人分享我的生活吧。

或许，一个人、自由自在的、会比较好。

我就是期待别人会明白我要的是什么。就是不喜欢赤裸裸的告诉你我想要的是什么。

我就是不喜欢改变别人、更不喜欢别人要改变我。

和我做朋友，是最好最好的。因为，你不需要容忍我的无理取闹，霸道、任性，坏脾气。

也可能，和你靠越近的人，就是那个越猜不透你的人。

反而，旁观者的意见一针见血，一点就通。

亲爱的阿嬷

在細漢的時陣阮阿嬤對我尚好　甲尚好的東西攏會留乎我
伊嘛定定帶我去幼稚園看人在七桃　看人在辦公伙兒　看人在覓相找
伊定定跟阮說　叫阮著要好好仔讀冊　嘸通大漢像恁老爸仔彼呢啊狼狽ㄛ
在彼個時陣　阮攏聽攏嘸　阿嬤　妳到底是在講什麼
大漢了後　才知影阿嬤的話　我會甲永遠永遠放塊心肝底
想到一步一步的過去　定定攏會乎人真難忘　時間一分一秒塊過去　在阮的心內定定攏會想到伊
阿嬤妳今嘛在叨位　阮在叫妳妳甘有聽到　
阮的認真甲阮的成功妳甘有看到　阮在叫妳妳知影沒　
阿嬤妳今嘛過的好麼　甘有人塊甲妳照顧　希望後世人阮擱會凍來乎妳疼　作妳永遠的孫仔　擱叫妳一聲阿嬤

亲爱的阿嬷, 愿您一路好走。
我爱你,来世再当你的孙子,好吗?

纯粹有感而发 (希望没有什么错别字)

当希望落空时,只能怪自己追求的,都太过完美。

要感谢挫折,它让你看清自己要的是什么,更了解自己。

在情绪低落时,偶尔,回想起过去让你捧腹大笑的回忆,有助平复情绪。

人生,实在很需要,一群和你如出生入死,同你经历过风风雨雨的死党。

就这样吧! :)

今天得了教训,算是蛮狠的,误以为考试时间为三个小时,导致没能完成考卷,于是心理不平衡。

有些话想对妈说,有时候,我们得接受别人的不完美,弄清背后的故事再做判断吧! 换个角度,也许,就不用担心那么多未发生的事情了。坦白说,上了大学,谈了恋爱,和父母沟通闲聊的时间真的少之又少,我很惭愧,可是,却做不出什么改变。好无奈啊! 大学生活真的有那么充实到剥夺我和家人共处的时间吗?还是是我自己把时间分配得不好?相信,是后者吧!

Hey, I want to slap myself too!

Hah! I thought getting satisfying grades is enough for midterm.
In actual fact, the grade was ruined by the assignment.
Okay, fine then, I will pay more effort on my following semester assignment.
And erm, after more and more consideration, deciding to make my blog private.
Just like, my friend out there, blog is just so private :P
And mum, can you please don't read my blog? Hahahahah! I know you will be reading this.

Reporting of Finals, bought 3 new pens and none of it survived till 3 hours of examination for Business Law paper. That's so sad. Thanks to my friend for giving me pens to sit for my English Language paper.

Alright, gonna stop here and get back to study.
Sorry YouNoan, for didn't reply back to your post.
Very touched to received a post from you on your blog. Seriously.
Sorry again, didn't make up a date for you. Let's do it after finals la.
Thank you very much for the blogpost. Appreciate it much :))

It's YOU n o a n's 21st!

There you go the most gorgeous Sonia Ng You Noan without braces & with her beautiful teeth!

You Noan, what a nice & unique name in Chinese and English, seriously, your name is the most special!

Talking about this patternful girl I've met ever since NS and now my course mate in USM, 

You're the most mysterious yet patternful friend I've ever had. 

Being so hard yet so easy to reach your heart, making me feel that you're so lonely deep down like you need a true friend that you can really trust for 101% so that you get to pour everything out to him/her.

I'm blessed that I could meet you in USM again, and I can't imagine my life now without you.

You are one of the best friend that everyone could ever had.

Having you as a friend is one of the best thing I am grateful for.

Thank you for always being there for me. 

Thank you for everything you have done and given to me.

Thank you for trusting me and sharing your life with me.

No matter how, I am always here for you kay?

Sometimes, you just can't hide so much. It's okay to be yourself and say what you wanted to  :)

It's your day today, finally a legal grown-up.

Keeping up with your good work on photography and other special skills you have la. 

Will support you to the max! :D

May you be well and happy always with your life !

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!

Hearts you <3